Fear Eats The Seoul: THE AWARD-WINNING FILM!!

Today is November 11, 2012. One year ago I made a decision to leave Korea and find my way as a filmmaker. This led me back to the states where I struggled to identify with “Home.” I had no idea how to proceed now that the film was finally finished.
“Do I move to Hollywood? Do I move back to NYC? Do I fly back to Seoul?”
Nothing felt right at the time… And that is what I have spent the last year of my life trying to explore. ”What is right for me? What do I want to do? Where do I want to be?”
More importantly, “Who am I?”
Twelve months become a year faster than we’d all like to admit. But it should never be the method in which we measure our time. Time is measured in the scars left behind when we fight tooth and nail for what we believe in and the dreams we choose to honor.
2012 has been a journey of rebirth for me, as an artist and as a youth discovering his adulthood. There have been many bumps along this road… Yet there have been far too many blessings to compensate for the bad. And though the year has some way to go before it closes its curtain, one thing I know for certain is that nothing will be quite the same after this year. 20XII
One year ago, around this same time, I finished my first feature film. I have spent the last year, sometimes in auto-pilot mode, trying to push my film out into the world.
With the help of ultra-generous Kickstarter Contributors (many of whom I still owe rewards to), we were able to raise $ 3,000 dollars to throw the film at as many festivals as possible.
I remember dragging friends with me to “support parties” where they grabbed Sharpie markers and helped me label disc after disc after disc for festival submissions, envelope after envelope after envelope. There were times when I sat in a fast food joint with my mom, the two of us quietly labeling DVDs and shipping envelopes, but laughing about our “Korean Sweat Shop.”
Back in April, upon my 25th Birthday, Fear made its way onto the festival circuit for the first time in Chicago. There were about 15 people in that theater. And I still wish I could have grabbed them all and given em big kisses and hugs and taken em out to drink and eat deep dish pizza. They cared enough to sit through my film. Who cares if they hated it, were bored, or had no idea why they walked in… they were there.
As the months passed, I continued my push of the film, with lots of rejection along the way. The film was then received by the Action On Film International Festival in California. As the film began to get accepted into more festivals I just couldnt believe that Fear was making its way in the world. But it was. I received my first nominations at that festival including: Best Horror Feature, Best Screenplay, Best Cinematography, and Best Art Direction. I remember jumping up and down, but feeling still grossly under-qualified to receive any nominations at all.
We didnt win any.
And life went on.^^ The film made its way into Syracuse, Georgia and even arrived on local California TV for two nights.
Around this time I departed the States to return to Korea after much soul searching on the streets of New York. This came as no shock considering what my next film is about and where I needed to be in order to do it justice. So I arrived back in Korea and I found myself confused by my constant shifting back and forth between homes (Worlds, really). Naturally, I have had some doubts about the choices Ive made in the last few years.
It has become clear to me that the only feeling I truly understand right now is the feeling of floating.
And for once, I am okay with it. I understand the secret to success. I am experiencing it as I write this, as I live through each minute of the day.
If I remain honest to myself and I continue to just move forward, no matter how slowly or how painfully, then I am succeeding. There is nothing more to it, than to be present and to not stop.
And today, one year to the day since I left in search of “Me,” I have the proud honor of announcing that little piece of shit film I have been carrying around for the last three years in my back pocket is now:
The Award-Winning Feature Debut by Nick J Calder
But not only has the film won a single award. Today, I get to smile with my head held high and announce Six Wins:
2012 Official Winner: Best Horror Feature - Zeddie Award
2012 Official Winner: Best Screen Story - Zeddie Award
2012 Official Winner: Best Editing - Zeddie Award
2012 Official Winner: Best of Festival - Horror Quest Film Festival
2012 Official Winner: Best Cinematography - Horror Quest Film Festival
2012 Official Winner: Best Horror Feature - Midnight Black International Festival
“Fear Eats The Seoul is a very creepy film to watch. At first glance you might overlook it thinking it is just another zombie film, but there is a lot going on here. The combination of visual style and the dubbed over voices gives the feeling of a nightmarish dream. This is a fun and creepy flick that we hope finds a well deserved home in the hearts of horror fans. ”
-Horror Quest 2012
I also get to announce that the film has been accepted into its 8th Official Festival Selection and will Premiere in the UK on Friday January 18th, 2013 at the Horror On Sea Film Festival.
This year, 20XII, closes a big chapter in the life of Nick Calder. Fear is both an ending and a beginning.
The process of rebirth is complete. There is nothing more I could possibly demand of my first born film, Fear Eats The Seoul. Three years ago when I first started, I would never have imagined that I would be able to call my first film an award-winning film. Or even that it would be a feature. Or that anyone would watch it.
But life is good. Life is beautiful. Dont give up on it. Be the magic you want to see in the world. And stay brave.
If this year was about rebirth, then next year is about the Phoenix Rising.
Were making magic.
-Nick Neon (XII)
Complete List of Awards and Selections:
2012 Official Winner: Best Horror Feature - Zeddie Award
2012 Official Winner: Best Screen Story - Zeddie Award
2012 Official Winner: Best Editing - Zeddie Award
2012 Official Winner: Best of Festival - Horror Quest Film Festival
2012 Official Winner: Best Cinematography - Horror Quest Film Festival
2012 Official Winner: Best Horror Feature - Midnight Black International Festival
2012 Official Nominee: Best Horror Feature - Action On Film
2012 Official Nominee: Best Produced Screenplay - Action On Film
2012 Official Nominee: Best Cinematography - Action On Film
2012 Official Nominee: Best Art Direction - Action On Film
2012 Official Festival Selection: Chicago Fear Fest
2012 Official Festival Selection: Action On Film International Film Festival
2012 Official Festival Selection: Syracuse Horror & More Film Festival
2012 Official Festival Selection: ShockerFest
2012 Official Festival Selection: Horror Quest Film Festival
2012 Official Festival Selection: Zed Fest
2012 Official Festival Selection: Midnight Black International Festival
2013 Official Festival Selection: Horror On Sea Film Festival

















